Yesterday, I got to drive mid-way across town by myself! Fellow introverted moms, do you understand my excitement to be in a car with empty car seats? It’s glorious. I love my children dearly, but it’s wonderful to be on my own sometimes. I was singing loud to “Jesus, Only Jesus” from one of the Passion cds when a large tree on the side of the Interstate caught my eye.
It wasn’t much to look at, really. It’s a medium sized tree, and its branches were barren. However, the sight of it made me grin because I remember what it looks like every spring. I don’t even know what type of tree it is, but when spring comes, it will be transformed into a pure white snow queen, as Anne (of Green Gables, of course) might have said. I love gazing at it and its sisters every spring on my family’s way to church.
The sight of this tree made me grin not so much because I know it will be beautiful but because I know it will be beautiful SOON. It may not look like it will ever be noteworthy–in fact, it looks a bit dead–but I know based on my past experience that it will soon be bursting with life.
Then my smile reminded me of something. That smile is the same one that comes on my face when I ask God for something He has promised in His Word–something I really need–and then remember, Oh yes, He’s faithful! He already promised He would give this to me. I can completely trust that He will…and exactly when I need it, which is SOON! What a wonderful feeling it is to remember that! My smile is a smile of anticipation for the great thing God is going to do next.
This comes the most when I’m praying for wisdom. I’m a homeschooling mother of three young children. I need wisdom a lot. So I ask God for help. Father, what should I do about Little E and her terrible spelling skills–how can I help her improve? God, how do I help Mr. C see that he really does love his sister? Of course, I need wisdom outside of parenting, too, especially anytime any big decision comes up, but even in little decisions. What should I try to get done today? Can You help me get done what needs to get done and let go of the rest?
Here’s the verse I lean on for this faith: “But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him” (James 1:5). There’s a caveat that comes along with it, though: “But he must ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind. For that man ought not to expect that he will receive anything from the Lord, being a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways” (James 1:6-8). This is where the smile comes in. After praying for wisdom, I often search my heart to see if I really have faith He will give me that wisdom or whether I’m just a fickle wave. I then decide He is indeed, trustworthy and worthy of faith because like that tree about to blossom in the spring, I have prior experience with Him. He has proven Himself to me time and again.
The more we read and study God’s Word, the more promises we will find, both explicit and implicit. The more we know these in our hearts, the more we will trust Him as we pray.
May you see God’s blossoms fill your life this spring!