Up on Daddy’s Shoulders: Trusting or Trembling?
by Heather Bock
Don’t miss a giveaway I have at the end of this post for a new Matt Redman cd!!
My youngest son, JP, has been a rather fearless kid. At two, he was climbing up to the top of the twisty tunnel slide with no problem (nothing like my other two). He went to bed in the pitch black at three years old–no need for a night light. He walks into new Sunday School classrooms confidently without a backwards glance.
However, when JP was four, I tried to hoist him onto my shoulders for a ride way up high. Instantly, he became an octopus, twining his arms and legs tightly around me, accidentally scratching my face in his terror of being dropped from such a height. “I’m not going to let you fall, sweetheart! You don’t have to be afraid. Trust me!” I coaxed him. My words were to no avail–he was scared out of his mind.
I’m not a very fearful person, either. Most of the time, I figure all will turn out ok in the end. I have God with me, right?
However, I realized a few days ago that last week I looked a lot like JP on my shoulders. It wasn’t so much that I was afraid of something that might happen or not happen–I was afraid God wouldn’t guide me in time. Truly, I’m still struggling with this fear. I didn’t think of it in those words last week. I spoke more about how the discernment of His specific will was sometimes hard (really hard). God spoke to me through the post I wrote last week, reminding me that He will make His guidance clear to me if I’m patient enough to wait. Although I knew He was talking to me through that line, it didn’t sink in right away.
When it did, I saw myself like JP, up on God’s capable shoulders, clinging in fear, scared to death He was going to drop me. I thought I trusted God, but when it comes to the unknown mixed with the unclear, my trust can be small.
How silly! God drop me? I’m talking about the One who gave His own Son to die because He loved the world (including me) even while we were still sinners (Jn. 3:16, Rom. 5:8). This is the same God who created the world (Gen. 1:1), who counts every hair on my head (Matt. 10:30), and who knows all things (I Jn. 3:20). He is my strong and wise Daddy. That I would cling in fear of Him is laughable. No, not laughable–it’s sad.
Just as I don’t want my son cowering as I hold him, God doesn’t want that for me, either. He calls to me the words I called to my boy: “I’m not going to let you fall, sweetheart! You don’t have to be afraid. Trust me!”
JP is now five. As I held him today, he actually maneuvered fearlessly up me so he could sit high on my shoulders. He sits securely up there now, back straight, head held high, arms relaxed as I hold his legs and walk through the house. I take him to the mirror so I can admire his confidence, and he grins at me and his reflection. This is what God wants for me. Confidence in Him–trust in Him–no matter what.
I just received Glory Song, a new worship cd by Matt Redman, a British singer whose songs I’ve loved for many years. In fact, my husband and I owned eight of his cds before this one. I enjoyed this new one very much; new vocals I hadn’t heard mixed with his music before brought a new sound: a little bit of American gospel, some UK rap, a few female worship leaders new to me all blended together with him in different songs. My heart soared as I heard the familiar tune I had sung so many times in my church as a child, “When We All Get to Heaven.” I worshiped with “It is Finished,” singing “Shame is silenced / Death defeated / Hallelujah, God be praised.” I was challenged by “Place of Praise,” with words calling me not to bring that which costs me nothing.
As I listened to the songs and read the lyrics by Matt Redman, I was struck by what is becoming a theme for me, a song called “Questions (You Are Faithful).” In it, he writes, “In all of our questions / All of our searching / When we are wrestling / You don’t let go / In all of our fears and doubts / All of our anxious thoughts / When we are restless / Still we are held.”
Still we are held. Whether I grasp or whether I sit up straight on His shoulders, still I am held by my Father.
“If I take the wings of the dawn,
If I dwell in the remotest part of the sea, Even there Your hand will lead me,
And Your right hand will lay hold of me…
How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand.
When I awake, I am still with You.”
Psalm 139:9-10, 17-18
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0 thoughts on “Up on Daddy’s Shoulders: Trusting or Trembling?”
I loved this post, Heather. I’ve shared on Twitter and FB. Blessings!
Thank you, Andy! I appreciate it, and I’ve added you to the drawing!
Chris here…twining as I tweeted on Twitter and fearless as I flung it on Facebook
I guess that means you entered my drawing? 😊
Lovely post, Heather. Shared on Facebook and Twitter. Please enter me in the giveaway!
Great! You’re entered!
This may sound funny–but I felt God show me a similar thing watching “Running Wild with Bear Grills”…in one of the early episodes, he propels down the side of a cliff with a celebrity attached to him–and all the way she is screaming she is so afraid. I remember thinking, “Lady this is Bear Grills, he’s got you.” But then, it was like God whispered to me that I have to remember that I am attached to Him in the scary parts of life–yet I still doubt, when I don’t have to. Great post–and Matt Redman’s music is great!
Thank you! Wow, I’ve never even heard of Bear Grills, but I love that God taught you the same lesson through it!
A great reminder! Made me think of Jude 24-25, “Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling, and to make you stand in the presence of His glory blameless with great joy, to the only God our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, dominion and authority, before all time and now and forever. Amen.”
Great verses for this! Thank you!
I already follow your blog, so I tweeted! What a great CD.
Actually, I just followed your blog.
Thank you, but I’m sorry the drawing is already over!